I am not looking forward to today - it's dads 67th birthday. How do you celebrate........ I think I have cried enough tears to shut down the De-Salination Plant (that's for Inverloch readers!) but hope that with the family there today we can enjoy that dad is with us on his birthday - despite how much it rips at your heart to see him like this.
(Mum was getting dad a bike......).
(Mum was getting dad a bike......).
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Today has been difficult - not because it's dads birthday (I very soon realised he had no conscious understanding of that). Today was difficult because I think we realised more than ever - our dad is not returning....not how we all know him..... The fleeting moments remain precious but the extent of cognitive understanding is limited.
MAGIC HOSPITAL MOMENT:
The spark in dads eyes today when his grandson Gus entered the room, was something I wish I could bottle. After a vocal rendition of happy birthday from Gus, big hugs, kiss, and plenty of high fives, dad appeared like nothing was wrong. It was a priceless moment I will never forget. As for Gus, he exited the room, letting Papa know: "that was a GOOD handshake". Whether 2 or 60, we all 'working on the rehab!'.
Today has been difficult - not because it's dads birthday (I very soon realised he had no conscious understanding of that). Today was difficult because I think we realised more than ever - our dad is not returning....not how we all know him..... The fleeting moments remain precious but the extent of cognitive understanding is limited.
MAGIC HOSPITAL MOMENT:
The spark in dads eyes today when his grandson Gus entered the room, was something I wish I could bottle. After a vocal rendition of happy birthday from Gus, big hugs, kiss, and plenty of high fives, dad appeared like nothing was wrong. It was a priceless moment I will never forget. As for Gus, he exited the room, letting Papa know: "that was a GOOD handshake". Whether 2 or 60, we all 'working on the rehab!'.
Peering at the card made by 8yr old grandaughter Elle, Dad says (clear as day): "Ah, Hawk".
I hear your chants of "remain positive" but we need to remain real also to move forward with a man no less loved but without the assets that made him the person he was.
I hear your chants of "remain positive" but we need to remain real also to move forward with a man no less loved but without the assets that made him the person he was.
